Update: on life

Life has been a roller-coaster ride~~ 

December:

12: I am officially married, we are one of the 12.12.12. couples, ceremony starting at exactly 12 minutes past noon :)

23 to 29: Went on a week long ski trip which was lovely and very relaxing. 

January:

11: Started another accounting course, which I regretted as soon as I saw the course outline. 

31: Went for the PDI of our condo. 

February (has to be the month with the most mixed feelings):

6: Found out about a high school friend who passed away.

13: Found out that an auntie passed away.

13: Picked up keys for condo.

16: Finally received pictures for the wedding.

17 to 24: Went to honeymoon in Cancun.

And that pretty much highlights the craziness going on in my life. Didn't really want to write a post, so took the easy way and jotted it down. It had started so happy. 

Mid Life Crisis @ 26

I'm slightly sleep deprived... Did not sleep well last night... Maybe a total of 2 hours... at most?

Terrible dream that I don't really want to remember. Ugh...

I saw my face this morning and couldn't believe how horrible I looked. When you don't rest well it really shows on your face. It seems that all the rest this weekend couldn't help compensate for last night...

When you are tired strange thoughts come to mind. I keep thinking about if onlys again... and it's just extra depressing when you see where you are and where you could have been if only you did something different. Maybe I wouldn't have stayed here and work a crappy reception job for 2 years... and I mean I got promoted, but I still sit at this desk everyday, and now that we have no more receptionist I am back here...

I will be turning 27 this year and it does not feel like my life is going anywhere...

Memory~

If I say it often enough, if I write it out often enough, maybe, just maybe I will remember.

Just thinking about how I can't even remember the name of the cosmetic or skin care product I use. I mean I look at it every day when I wake up and before I go to bed. But I can't remember the brand if my life depended on it. How bad is my memory? I say things I don't remember saying. I do things I don't remember doing. AHH~ Very frustrated...

Repetition does not help T^T

Setting: in the dark, alone in my room after a long day of work...
Mood: kinda bummed out... had a good workout... but negative mood afterward
Thought: too much on my mind!

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Typical day at work just doing some documents and filing... was tired and got home to take a nap only to be awaken by em so i can fill up 10 mins of his time while he waits for someone to finish shopping... afterwards i couldn't go back to sleep i just started playing a bit of computer games before heading down for dinner...

at 8pm I meet up witn Ronnie and we tried for our first time since we joined the gym to do body jam... totally not the class for me i was soo unco-ordinated that i keep tripping over myself! wahhhh... no more for me.... however the leg workout and the eliptical was good... i felt like i am ready to start preping for snowboarding this winter.... got so excited talking about it Ronnie... we chatted most of our time there which made me realized some things...

1) Ronnie is an amazing friend, I am soooooo lucky to have meet her.
2) I need to find time for myself.
3) I really don't need fair-weather friends.

Random Thought~

If only there were more hours in a day. There's so much to do yet so little time. 24 hours a day. 8 is spent sleeping, another 8 spent at work. Almost 1 hour is spent in traffic. Food takes about 2 hours. 1 hour is devoted to hygiene. That leaves 4 hours.... between 7pm to 11pm I finally have some free time... but usually that time is again split to do different things for mom or grandpa or spending some quality time with Em...